Ha. Ha. Ha.
These goals are bogus. Especially the one about the job. I need to be a lot less afraid of things before I can do that.

• Be less afraid

Alright, so, lets be honest here and say that to be less afraid is far easier said than done. However, it is something that is constantly causing problems in peoples lives, at least in mine. It something that has definitely have to go. Despite how afraid I am of not being afraid. This is not cool.

My to-do list totally did not happen today and that I was completely my own fault. I could have gone and got job applications for two different places but I got all SCARED and chose to just hide behind my moms shoulder with my 2-year-old niece. I am seriously so much of a coward, it is no longer healthy. I didn't clean my room or any cars (spiders. completely understandable, right?) and I neither ran nor did other things for my body. I was, however, very positive and I love the way that seems to make everything else seem so light and airy. Except spiders and job hunting.

Although I know that I should get on the job bandwagon, I am also very content with having this day to enjoy the weather and playing my ukulele. The job will come soon. Mainly because I have a boy to see and I need the gas money for when I have a car to drive. Plus, MONEY, I have never felt like so much of a lowlife as now when I have no money. I can't even begin to understand how I spent 17 years of my life without making my own money.

Bright side, I did go shopping for my new diet (applause!)! And I must say that I am really enjoying it. I'm not saying I didn't look at the McDonald's my sisters were eating and thought to myself about how easy it would be to become a ninja and just judo-snatch those burgers out of their hands because I totally did but I REALLY loved eating two blackened talapia and lots of steamed broccoli. And the green tea. I drank green tea before this diet but I drink a cup with every meal I eat and I feel fabulous and I think I am becoming addicted to it. No joke.

I will have to add a post dedicated to my thoughts on body image or something one day, when its a much bigger issue but tonight I am just really focused on being positive, happy and enjoying things. There is not enough time in the day to worry about what people think about you or anything that is happening in world outside of your personal bubble of happiness. Maybe this is just the result of three cups of green tea and lots of compliments from a lovely little gentlemen but who cares? Positivity is a plus.

• Stop worrying about others, especially those who worry about you.

I think I am really ready for April 17th.

So, for a person to create a blog dedicated to their every day life, you'd have to assume that it is a pretty interesting life, right? At least thats how I feel. And yet here I am, typing out my first post on a blog dedicated to yapping about my life, boring as it is. I guess I feel like the best way to not be boring is just that; to not be boring.

"She refused to be bored, chiefly because she wasn't boring."

Zelda Fitzgerald

My lovely lady, although also known as lunatic, has a very good point. I know I'm not boring at all and yet I am bored 95% of my day to day life. So, sure, this is just a blog about a little nobody in a tucked away corner of the earth, but this little nobody is going to try and use this blog as a maneuver to get what she wants. Money, friends, weight loss, goals, earthly possessions, a greater faith, etc., whatever it is I set for a goal, I want to keep it and I am hoping this blog will help (although I did have a blog similar to this for my 365 and I completely flaked on it). 

So, goals for the beginning?

• Stop being bored, chiefly because you aren't.
• Go out and get a job, ANY JOB. You are almost 20-years-old. Its time to start acting like it.
• Watch all the movies featured in the Great Movie Ride in Hollywood Studios at Disney World.

Sure that last one seems a little dumb but it will definitely keep me occupied so I don't worry about stupid things like guys being really weird. Which happens a lot.

So, in light of the blog and my small list of goals, I am in bed, tired as heck, about to turn on Casablanca (which is shown in the Great Movie Ride). My plan is to wake up tomorrow and go look for jobs, wash two cars and clean out one, go to the store to buy things for a new diet I am working on, go running and do some blogilates things for my bod, clean my room and be positive. 

The last thing is what I am afraid of the most because some bad things may come to light tomorrow but I found an old favorite quote of mine and I have decided to learn to live by it.

"Today is a brand new day, a fresh start. 

Replace any negativity with positivity. 

Think happy thoughts."

Let's do this! April 16, 2013, I'm ready for you.